Rode with my SIL to Durango, she had a doctor’s appt in the regional hospital, thought I’d just, you know, wait in the coffee shop – that’s when I realized it is way. Too. Soon. – breathed through the beginning of a panic attack and came outside and found a bench. I’d rather be freezing…
I made it to the house where my beautiful geek grew up. It doesn’t feel as raw as when I was here for his funeral in July – it’s more just melancholy.
I have spent all afternoon sorting all our pics – I want to take all of the pics and other memorabilia that was from before I met Gary back to New Mexico with me. It needs to stay in his family. I was reminded just how happy we were. On a related note: crying for…
In under a year Koya’ana lost her big sister that raised her, her kitty sister that adored her, her other daddy that she was most bonded to, and her kitty brother that greeted her every morning and evening at the pool. In order to keep it all in perspective this year she is La Catrina,…
Yesterday I met some friends for an early dinner – we were on a patio enjoying the breeze and the company. It dawned on me that that was the first time I had gone out as a single person in almost 23 years. It was in the middle of dinner when I realized it. It…
Gary’s family invited me for Thanksgiving – once I stopped crying and said “yes” I ordered this shirt to wear to dinner with them!
Today’s exercise- wandering around Costco. Bonus of interacting with the 3D people. Gary was an introvert and quite shy around others but at home he was the life of my party. He filled the house with laughter and playfulness and now the place is silent – like being underwater. Being around people – albeit strangers…
Just finished swimming laps. Hoping to start shedding some of this caretaker weight. I told the hospital chaplain as they were about to remove Gary from life support that I didn’t know what direction my life would go in now, but that I was determined it would be pointed towards well-being. Only recently have I…
Please be kind to yourself, be gentle, be encouraging, be someone you can count on…
In July, three days after Gary passed away, which happened to be my birthday, Mr. Tuxedo aka Zorro aka Not My Cat passed away. PS: he was always really my cat
