Not everything serves us forever. We can be all-in on something one day and then be finished with it the next. I wasn’t necessarily raised that way, and throughout my adult life I have waffled a lot when it comes to “letting it go” and “keeping it”. What I experienced from a very young age…
Mother’s Day 2022
I was orphaned young. When I share that with people they tilt their head and say “aw, how young”? When I tell them I was 28 when Dad died and 30 when Mom died they roll their eyes and snort, as if to say “oh grow up, you aren’t an orphan”. My definition of being…
It’s just a truck, isn’t it?
It’s crazy to think that something like a vehicle can be intimately tied to a person – it’s just a vehicle – an assemblage of pieces parts that you move yourself around town with. Gary bought this truck 11 years ago, the only vehicle I watched him choose for himself during our 22 years together.…
Just like Groundhog Day
What I really didn’t realize was that when my husband died that day last July, that it wouldn’t be the only time. He dies every day in my world. My days are what seem like an endless list of tasks, and of phone calls to strangers at companies that start with “I’m calling to let…
Happy New Year
Gary and I bought these champagne flutes on our third anniversary. They are amazing. We were the people that used the good china every day and we always toasted with these flutes. Tonight it’s just me for the first time in a very long time. Gary was the one that taught me that when you…
Merry Christmas
Sitting down to glazed ham, mashed potatoes, roasted Brussels sprouts and a glass of Zinfandel. A toast to those that we have, those that we have lost, and those we will be blessed to meet. Happy Christmas!
Happy Holidays!
Solstice Man
Today is the winter solstice – the shortest day of the year. The one that has the least amount of time with sunlight. Today is also Gary’s birthday, the first since he passed. When we had just begun our relationship we were on a road trip with his family around the holidays. We stopped at…
How it feels to be loved
Not too long after we got together Gary and I decided to try taking a cruise and see if we’d enjoy that type of vacation. We booked a short one – just seven days – out of Galveston to the Caribbean. We were both so nervous yet excited for the experience. The ship was huge,…
Is hermitting a word?
I have hermit tendencies. When I was 20 I spent six months in a friend’s house living in his basement and never stepped a foot outdoors. A group of friends had an intervention and took me out to dinner which did in fact cause me to stop hermitting. In an effort to not become a…